Saturday, August 28, 2010

What do I want out of the Peace Corps?

Why did I join? Why have I decided to sacrifice 2 years of my life? What has driven me to pursue this? Why did I go through an 18-month application process? What drove me to quit my job, leave my friends, leave my family, end relationships, sell my car, get rid of most of my possessions, pack a bag, and move across the world to a place I don’t speak the language, understand the customs, or know exactly what im doing. The last few days have been a relentless mental search for this answer. Now I know maybe I should have decided this before I left Orlando, but that’s not how it happened. I did have reasons for all of it. And now that im here, have those reasons changed. Because wanting to do the Peace Corps and actually joining and going for 2 years are two very separate things, with two very separate motivations.

I think while applying, the reasons were to get an experience that you can’t really get anywhere else. I also didn’t know what I wanted to do with my life, so why not? Maybe after the 2 years, there will be a giant blinking sign of where I am supposed to go and what I want to do. I was expecting that sign after college, didn’t happen. Now maybe it will happen after all this. But still, that doesn’t explain why I couldn’t just find a job I liked and stuck with it.

I went to 3 different colleges in 3 years. After high school, moved to NC, that first summer in college, moved to ATL, moved back to NC to a new city and new college, moved back to FL to Titusville first, after that moved to Orlando for school. So in 4 years the longest I was in one place was about 15 months. I think maybe I was feeling that urge to move again, do something, and go somewhere. So I applied my last semester in college. After I graduated college, I found an internship that turned into a full-time job. I stayed there while I was going through the rest of the application process. All this was setting up this large decision to join the Peace Corps.

I think the reasons as to why you join the Peace Corps and why you stay in the Peace Corps for the full two years differ. And they are different for everyone. Some are placed in a region or job that they can really make some difference in, some just think living in another country is enough, and not really accomplishing much is fine with them.

Now the reasons for why I want to be here are a mixture of a lot of things. I have always kind of looked for something. Maybe that’s why I changed schools so many times. I don’t really know what I am looking for, but I know I wasn’t gonna find it where I was. So I think part of me wanted to go look for it in a far away place. Not sure what that is, but its almost like there is something out there I am supposed to find, and im not gonna sit home and wait for it, im gonna go looking for it. Could be an ideal. Could be a person. Could be a cause. Could just be the experience of looking through my eyes in a new place. But whatever it is, that’s why I am here. I also want to see things no American has seen. I want to be the first draft of eyes to look upon something, and then refine and retune what it is for other eyes to see, or maybe read right here. I want to help and show a different way of doing things, but more so I want to be taught a different way of doing things.

Today marks 3 months into this 27-month journey in Armenia. I am still looking and searching for my place here, what I am going to do and how it can affect me. And I am writing about it in hopes to influence or inform one person.


“Be the change you wish to see in the world.”

Wednesday, August 25, 2010

Camping Day 2

I woke up exhausted, but straight away I brushed my teeth and I automatically felt a little better. I don’t know what it is about removing plaque from my mouth, but it helps remove my worried while fighting cavities. So the day started with the gas burners not working, so everyone got 2 pieces of candy, a short cake cookie, and a vanilla wafer… glad im here to help with health education.

Again had to keep post from 10-12, not bad. It was normal, captured 3 of the diversante’s, but let them go on account of they were there to fix the gas burners. We ate lunch and had a few competitions: Race’s, darts, arrubix cube, easy stuff.

Then the best part of my day started. I put a towel on the ground at the foot of my tent, laid on it under a tree in the shade, looked up at the clear blue sky and had ray charles remind me of why I love GA and being from the south. I played my favorite Neo-Soul mix and he is on it. It was a very good hour or so. Nothing like a lttle Ray Charles, Erykha Badu, Maxwell, & Anthony Hamilton couldn’t cure. Then I had a weird though…

After I ended a relationship to come to the PC, whenever I would talk to her, her last line was always, “I hope you find what your looking for.” And that statement was lingering in my head for some reason. What am I looking for? I have been contemplating that all day and will cont. to do so. I hope whatever it is, I do find it, cuz I feel I am looking for something, and its not a bad stomach virus, cuz I have already found that 3 times.

So we had a normal dinner, relaxing afternoon, then the Marleboro Man returned. If I have yet to talk about him, basically he is the camp leader that’s on a power trip and he makes everyone do pushups and sit-ups all day long. He just basically is always yelling at the kids to do insane things and hitting on the girls that do the cooking while ordering them to get him more coffee, all while wearing camo and a Marleboro cowboy hat. When he leaves camp, it is always on a horse, and always for some dramatic reason.

So the MM (marleboro man) is back, chaos has ensued, and im getting a little stressed again.

So the nights post went fine, nothing happened. However the rest of the night was interesting. The MM made everyone get in a line and he laid down next to the fire, and he made everyone line up and tell him a joke in fron of the whole group. If he liked it, you sat down. If he didn’t like it, 1 of 3 things would happen depending on how bad it was. 1- 20 pushups. 2- whip in the a@! with his wooden knumb-chucks. O ya, forgot to mention he carries them around his neck at all times. And 3- 20 sit-ups while he whacks u in the stomach with his knumb-chucks as you do them. And he wasn’t easy about it… to bad its not a year from now, where I will have the language ability to explain how ridiculous this is. But whatever. So after, it was about 10, they made everyone under 14 go to bed, and I had to get the fire started. That wasn’t that hard, and I had a good time doing it. After I got it started, the girls came out of their tent and sat around trying to talk to me and teach me some Armenian. The fire was great, relaxing, made me forget I was 10,000 miles away from home.

About midnight, the MM asked me to be post #3, I was reluctant because I was exhausted, and I knew this would be a 2 hour post. I did it though. Right then all the diversante’s decided to get loud and have some fun… at my post. So it was an eventful 2 hours, but I still didn’t want to stand there in the dark while being exhausted. I had to tell the I was tired and wanted to go to bed around 3, they were reluctant but they let me. We all woke up one time because the diversante’s attacked around 4:30, apparently we captured one, but they captured Artyum, god rest his soul.

Day two ended with a lot of yelling, no fireworks, a really good bonfire by me, and me still pondering that question.

“Somebody told me it was frightening how much topsoil we are losing each year, but I told that story around the campfire and nobody got scared.”

Saturday, August 21, 2010

Camping Day 1: Diary of a mad white guy camping in Armenia…

Camping Day 1: Diary of a mad white guy camping in Armenia…

So we woke up at 6:45 because we had to leave for the sport complex at 7:40. I thought my sister was coming with, but as I waited and waited for her, I finally asked when she would be ready, and she informed me that she wouldn’t be coming with me. That’s ok though.

So I got to the complex and helped load up the van full of all the stuff. Then we had a little pep-talk that I completely understood… not really, then we set off to the camping site that was 16k away… and we were going by foot. If you do the math, which I did, it is about… 9.94 miles, approximately of course. It took us 3 and a half hours to walk there. Walking was myself, my counterpart (to who I will now refer to as CP), and 39 kids. Although it was a beautiful walk, it was still very long. We got to camp and all the tents were set up by about 4-5 of the older kids that came in a van. Then the camping got interesting very quickly…

We broke into 4 different tribes, and each tribe chief learned the rules of the game we will be playing for the next 4 days. I was told I will be the chief for the 2nd tribe. I own the 2nd group, they are my tribe, and I am their fearless, American, non-armenian speaking leader. First thing I asked them was if they wanted a team name, one kid yelled cheechu/vort, which is a kind of worm, so we were the worms. Great name guys…

Now the game. This is a serious game, and everyone bought into it, and I now understand why. First thing was they roped off a compound around where we were camping, and you could not leave the compound without approval. Approval came from the chief that was currently in charge of post duty. Starting at 6pm that evening, each team had a 2 hour post, and the chief would roam around and make sure everything was ok and tell kids, “yes u can leave and go to the bathroom.” Also in the compound, they placed an Armenian flag in the middle that would also be guarded during post. Post were stationed at 8 different places around the compound, and the 9th post being the flag. We rotate post’s every 2 hours. EVERY 2 HOUR’S. So even from 2-4 in the morning we had post.

The reason we need guards around our campsite is because there are demon snathcers that come in the middle of the night and take people that are outside of the compound, they are called Diversante’s. I have no idea what that translates to. But they dress in all black, and if they take you, you are basically their slave and POW. They can even snatch a post or guard if they get close enough and can manage to do it. This game is to go on for 4 days, all day and all night, never stopping.

So my 1st shift with my little villagers was from 6-8pm, not bad. Very easy. But that means my 2nd shift will be from 2-4am… ya. So one thing I forgot to mention is that we have to get water out of a spout from the side of the road, about 150 yards away outside the compound, and with 35+ kids, water must be filled regularly.

Right after my shift, we ate dinner and I was exhausted from the walk and the long day, so we lit a bonfire, as did the DS’s (diversante’s) and they were trying to intimidate us with it. I wanted to rest so bad. But why rest when you can sneak behind enemy lines and put out their fire… im not sure really. So myself and 2 other village chiefs left the camp, dressed in all black, and went to go put out their fire in the cover of darkness, without using any lights. So we are sneaking around in the dark, I get stung by neddles probably 5 times, and we only use the moon to light where we walk. We climb a mountain, sprint around a historic church, and stomp out their fire, which is good fun. Then the guys im with want to find them and try and take one of the hostage… so we attempted to do so by looking and hiding in bushes for about 40 minutes, regretfully not finding any.

So we successfully sneak back to camp, and its 11pm, and I have shift at 2am. So I head to bed to get some shut eye. I am in a tent with another kid, but he doesn’t sleep until like 4 am, and that was in another tent, so im alone.

Even with ear plugs or an ipod, I did not sleep a wink. We had a bonfire going, 35+kids running around screaming, and the DS’s had fireworks and firecrackers they set off every 10 min and would throw them into camp. Im pretty sure at least 3 hit my tent. Needless to say, I was never even close to sleeping. So I get up around 1:20 so I can prepare for shift at 2. It looked like WWII outside. Things exploding, kids diving behind trees. Fires going. I had flash backs of firework wars at The Rojas’ house in Titusville, where I grew up. People wore all camo, repelled out of tress, and used mortar fireworks as hand grenades, it was amazing. If u know what im talking about, u know how ridiculous it is. Now imagine you cant speak the language and your in a foreign country… you actually kinda feel like your in a war haha.

So at about 1:50, it starts raining, which is just super since I have a 2 hour shift in 10min. As you can tell by my writing, I am less than happy. So its 1:55 and im about to wake up my viallgers, and my CP tells me since I have a group that is 11-13 years old, they get to sleep, and I have to patrol with the older kids… yay. So I did my patrol for WWII and was exhausted the whole time. Everything went fine though.

The end of day 1 was rain, fireworks, more rain, lighting and fire, and more rain, and bed at 4am. Not bad though. Interesting to see how the next 3 days turn out, and if I can actually make it. This game is serious, and every kid is into it. All I can think of is my good buddy Manolo back in Orlando. This is what he is made for, and this would be the best 4 days of his life, maybe even better than his honeymoon… Sorry Ashley J

Day 2 comes early….

“The object of war is not to die for your country but to make the other bastard die for his.”

- General George S. Patton

Monday, August 16, 2010

Same World different Country

Girls and clothes... that what this post is about.

My oldest brother that lives in my house went with his wife and 2 daughters to yerevan for the last 3 days for one thing... back to school shopping. Yep, they do it in armenia too. and its an even bigger deal.

I have to niece's, 7 and 9, and they were soooo excited to show me everything they got for their new start of school. it happens on September 1st. They showed me everything from the new underwear they got to every pen, marker, highlighter, and notebook they got. It was actually very exciting to see how excited they were about all of it. the youngest would light up anytime her mother would pull out a piece of clothing from the bag and it was her's, she would turn and smile from ear to ear, then ask me if it was beautiful. and of course it all was. by the way the majority of everything they got was pink.

and this wasnt just me in the room, then entire family stopped what they were doing and came to see the new clothes, it was a big deal. especially for mariam the 9 year old. They bought her what i would consider a prom dress. Every year when they start school the family throws a big party for them celebrating the start of the school year. Still not sure why only 1 girl got the dress, but maybe it was because she is the oldest. but it took me back when i made my mother take me to buy new clothes for school, me and my brothers made her buy some ridiculous stuff. It started with JNCO jeans, then went to nike and adidas everything, then A&F, Amer. Eagle, then in college i jumped to old navy and target, finally after college i had to buy grown up clothes at men's warehouse.

It was good to see the girls were excited to start school, as was the entire family. This showed me how armenian girls arent much different from american girls. They were soo excited about there new clothes, they are always getting dressed up just go to do the simplest of tasks like buy fruit, and everything they bought was pink, when getting ready we are always waiting on them... sounds about the same to me, and i think i may catch some flack for that last one. But hey, at least i got some socks out of the deal... even though they were made in Turkey haha

So i am going camping with my counterpart and 25 kids for the next 4 days, off in the woods. the kids were asked to bring supplies, i was slightly nervous when each one showed up at the pre-departure meeting with a half kilo of potatoes, abilly club and an axe. Sounds like good times to me. I also know that my counterpart is planning on some midnight war games with black masks and hoods, which also makes me slightly nervous. Given that i am supposed to watch after kids and keep them safe when i dont even speak the language, its ok though, yelling in any language gets your point across haha.

I think it will be fun and probably a long 4 days, but i am excited, and i should have some exciting stories for you when i return. Hopefully they dont involve either me accidentally axing a kid, a kid accidentally axing me, or me returning with 24 kids. Cross your fingers....

"Camping: The art of getting closer to nature while getting farther away from the nearest cold beverage, hot shower and flush toilet."

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Thursday, August 12, 2010

Sisian Youth Day





I know this is my first blog in awhile, and alotttt has happened. But tonight it is only one subject.

Today was Sisian Youth Holiday. I had no idea until last night what has going on, or what was happening. Basically it is a government-organized holiday where all the youth in the town get together.

So it started off with us meeting in the central square at 8:45 in the morning, I wasn’t happy about that. But we all got a white shirt that had Sisian spray painted on the back. It looked like this ՍԻՍԻԱՆ. So after we all put the shirts on, they lined all about 200 of us to walk down the streets up to the church, and we had a priest dressed in all black that walked with us. Once we walked all the way up to the church, about 2-3 kilometers, we went inside, and the priest said a little something, I have no idea what, then we went outside. And this is where it gets interesting. We all grabbed a carnation, went around the corner to the graveyard, and we put the carnations on the graves of fallen soldiers from the Karabach War. Not only did we place them on the grave, we walked and people touched every single grave, there was about 40 of them. This was to show that remember every soldier that lived in Sisian and died in this was.

After we did that, our next location to walk was the ancient ruins to remember those that are their ancestors. This was no ordinary walk; it was about an hour walk in random fields and across mountaintops, 13 kilometers. It was a heck of a walk. But turns out we were walking to what Armenians call “The original Stonehenge.” This is something that is exactly like Stonehenge, but dated way before it. There is a debate on what it was used for, Archeoastronomists (ya didn’t know that was a profession) think that is was a constellation map, because every stone out of the 200 something stones have a hole in them each pointing out into a certain location in the sky. And other stones have sharp tops so you can correct each perfect line of other stones, basically to calibrate them. It was very interesting. Others belief it was an area for religious worship and burial because graves were found at the site as well. Either way it was something very cool to see.

After we were there and all took a giant photo, all 200 of us, we heading to the local tourist spot, it’s a waterfall. I went here about 3 days ago with an A-17 Bill and his counterpart. It was great; we had lunch, climbed the waterfall, and then climbed this giant rock. Shout out to Bill for showing a good time. Anyway, we were going to the same spot to spend the afternoon.

So we show up and we pull out some soccer balls, but all we play is volleyball with them, for hourssss. And hourssss. Even the priest got in on a few games, that was interesting to see, he was still in his garb and went with it like nothing changed. We were going to be served lunch their, and I saw what we were eating as soon as I arrived. The dead cow they were gutting right at the entrance, for everyone to watch, and smell. And as we played v-ball, you could here them chopping through the ribs with an axe, a rusty one at that. Since I got there and they were just skinning it, I knew it would be a very long time till we ate. So I went with my counterpart, Davit, and we walked up to the waterfall. It was gorgeous, again. We climbed to the top, I took some photos, saved a girl from falling in the water by accident, but it was only a 2-foot fall, no serious thing. Then we headed back, but we stopped along the way with some girls and were searching for apples in an apple orchard. We were starved, so we crossed a river and got soaking wet, just to find food. We found 3 apples for 7 people. I was the gentleman and gave mine up. However when I got back to where everyone was playing volleyball, my socks and shoes were soaked, I was sun burnt from being outside all day, and starving. So I decided to sit down, take my shoes and socks off, put them out in the sun and try and let them dry. And by now, you could have guessed it; the other 199 people were wondering who this foreigner was that was celebrating youth day in Sisian with them. So a few would leisurely come talk to me, or Davit would introduce me, and my other host brother Nairi was there as well, so I met some of his friends. And anyone that knew 2 words of English would come talk to me, I don’t mind it though, some volunteers get annoyed with. I figure I practice my Armenian on them; they can do the same with English.

So the time to eat had finally come. We left at 9am, walked 15k, and it was now 3, so everyone was starving. We literally ate an entire cow. That’s a lot of meat, with lavash, tomatoes, cucs, and cheese. And it was all gone. Not the best meat I have ever had, but at the time it was glorious. OOOO not to mention the homemade wine they had that 6L bottles. That stuff was great. Best wine I have had in Armenia. And I tried a little trick my cousin Michael taught me, she mixes fanta with wine, and I tried it today, not bad. I enjoyed it. So after lots of beef and lavash, and wine, the music started up, and we had people dancing out in the fields. I was able to hide for about 15 minutes, cause they always pull the American to dance. Always. It’s almost like a law in this country. So I got pulled in to dancing in a field with a bunch of Armenian women and one man, and once the American stated dancing the crowd gathered. I wasn’t doing anything spectacular, just the male role of Armenian dancing, which is not much. But everyone seemed to like it and be impressed, so I kept going.

I had to stop dancing for a moment though because I saw something that I had to get a picture of for my friend Katherine Defilipo. She is located in Sevan now and was in Fantan with me. She has odd fetishes, and I saw a 4 year old boy with a rattail that had to be at least 18 inches long, and a shaved head, walking behind his dad, and he had a cigarette in his mouth he was pretending to puff on every time hit father would smoke. It was amazing. Anyway. This was now about 5:15 and we are all exhausted, and sun burnt. But, the day isn’t over. Now we all travel back to the center of the city for a concert that is being held at 8 pm. So we get back to town around 6:15, and I head to my counterparts house for some tea and coffee. I end up falling asleep on the couch, and get woken up by his 7-year-old son Tigran when he licked my arm. Hope it tasted good.

So we head down to the square in front of the university, and it was like back home when the fair came to out local Catholic Church…. Everyone was there. The city stopped so this thing could happen. We listened to a few singers, then me, my host brother Nairi and his wife Anush, and my other brother’s wife Armineh went to a café to sit for a bit. They came to the conclusion that they need to find me an Armenian wife, so every girl that walked by they would ask me what I thought about her. It was funny, I said there homework over the next 2 years is to find the best candidate and I will see what I think…. Don’t worry mom, im not worried and you shouldn’t be either.

So I came home at the end of a very long day, took a shower, then me, momma, Nairi, Anush, and Armineh sat on the balcony and drank juice and tea and talked. I was teaching them the English version of a lot of worms. My host brother Nairi is a riot; he called his wife a smelly worm by the end of the conversation. He is always cracking jokes, I love it. So currently in my house there is 7 people, but wait, there’s more… (kind of like an infomercial). Just as I was walking inside, I heard a knock downstairs outside at the gate. So we go out there, and low and behold it is the 4th brother I haven’t met, his wife, and 2 daughters. The daughters I have met and they are adorable, and my new brother, Sabat, and his wife Amelia, seem like they are great. And every brother in this family is built like a rock. All of them. Nairi, Vahay, Sabat, and Davit. So lets count it now… yep that makes 11 in house. And I love it… I have a big family at home, so it feels right at home for me.

So all in all, it was a long day. I got a serious cultural experience, and I met a lot of new people. I am happy about it. Including the mayor, who’s first question was when should we expect money coming into the city from me, but that’s ok. I told him when I am fluent in Armenian, so he offered to tutor me ha-ha. Always deflect those types of questions with humor, generally works. Saw three great sites around Sisian, integrated a little bit with the community, now instead being “that American,” I’m “that American that can play football pretty good, and dance really well.” We will see how far that takes me.

What I want you to get from this very lengthy post is that the community connection doesn’t just happen with the current community. The community includes those that have fallen, those that are young, those that are different, and those that have nothing in common except they are a youth in Sisian. Its great to se here that a 17-year-old boy shakes hands with an 11-year-old and asks him how his mother is doing. In the states, you don’t get those connections outside of age groups. Everyone shakes hands, young and old, I have seen a 12-year-old have a conversation with not just one, but groups of people in there late teens, just because they generally care about every person in the town, and keep these relationships for as long as they can. Take that to heart, and think about it. Just because someone is younger or older doesn’t mean you cant have some form of a relatioship with them. And I mean more than a 5 year gap. I like the idea of it.

By the way, my next post will be on how I have become a regular on Armenian television. Ya you heard me right… Fo Sho! Until next time. Minchev Vaghe

"We were born to unite with our fellow men, and to join in community with the human race."


Wednesday, August 4, 2010

I do solemnly swear....

So today is the Peace Corps Armenia Swearing in service. Those of us that have been here for 10 weeks, and are still here, get to finally become PC Volunteers today. So in about an hour and a half, i will now be working as a representative of the US State Department. This is weird to think about since i left home about 11 weeks ago, quit my job, sold or gave away the majority of my possessions, left my friends, family, moved to a new country, learned a new language, lived with a host family, and lived off 3$ a day, only now to be officially a Peace Corps Volunteer. It has been a very difficult 10 weeks, and at times all i could think about was a cheezy gordita crunch from taco bell, but all the food wants aside, i am very happy to finally be in this position. I passed my 2 week teaching practicum, did well on my language proficiceny test (got a higher score than i needed), and showed the want and determination to be in this program for the next 2 years. So today is the day, that i swear to protect my country from all enemies, foreign and domestic, and commit to upholding the values stated by the Peace Corps, and will serve as am American in Armenia for 2 years. Wish me luck, hope i dont trip when i try and shake the hand of the madam ambassador...